Thread: my sisters

I have two sisters one live in fl by me the other is in NJ Well sister in NJ is in the hospital she is an alcoholic (SP?) she has hepititis c she is gaundis(sp?) yellow liver not working. she will not stop drinking even though she was told she will die. She is going through dts right now. We keep geting reports that she may not make it. I talk to her at least once amonth even though I have done tough love on her for over 10 yrs now. I can't take her calling and talking about the past. the life we had to grow up in. she keeps talking about my mother wich has passed. I don't want to remember the past It is the past I have my life and my kids. I was raped molested and my mother called me a lier. she did nothing to help us girls just as long as she could keep her life style she took me on her affairs she was having i would be swiming watching tv or doing something when she was occupied. I was made to lie to my father. I was beat so bad I would have to wear jeans and turtle necks in the summer to cover the belt buckle marks all over my body.my sisters were treated the same way. But why do they think I am such a cold b**** because I hold no respect at all for my mother. I don't want to remember her. now my sister here in Fl says I have to call my sis in NJ because she may not make it. Why bother she has Dts so bad she doesn't know anyone she is vilolent she says people are poking their heads through the wall to talk to her. she is screaming because snakes are on her and it is her IV and cathider. My neice said she talked to the head nurse to day they said if you tried talking to her now she is like taking to an alzhimer(sp?) patient. I just got a job last week and my sister here in Fl says I have to go to NJ. well no My family needs food and me. nobody helped me all those years. I always took the beating and stood in front of the knives my mother pulled. I have done my job I love them but I love my husband and children more I am not going to max out my credit cards to go to NJ If my sister does die There will be no funeral or wake she will go straight form morge to grave. I talked to my sister last week in Nj I told her I love you but I have a life now my life is not in the past. my life is with my family living in this house. I love you but If you can't stop drinking I can't keep taking your calls she has been in this hospital 5 times in the last year with dts she was suppose to stop drinking to treat her hep c. Nobody wants to deal with her when she is drinking and so nasty. but as soon as I say I am not dropping everything to call her or go there I am wrong and I am told that I don't love her. Well I love her I love the old sister not this one that has threatend to slice my throat and hurt my kids I remember the sister I use to try and protect. and I was the middle child. I know I am probley wrong but I give up And I just don't care anymore Go ahead and flame me I am most likley wrong but I can not deal with this anymore sorry I just had to get this out And I know this is very long