missteena
03-14-2009, 07:09 PM
Well, I have to come and vent because I have been feeling this way lately and I am not sure exactly why but it's really irritating...here goes...
Within the last couple weeks I have been feeling very gloomy. My moods are up and down and all over the place. My birthday is next month and it's my "Big 21" and everyone keeps asking me what the plans are and I keep saying "Honestly, I wish I could just sleep the day away." We were originally planning a short "getaway" but now that doesn't sound like fun....not even going out to dinner sounds like fun. LOL and as I am sitting here typing this I am making a disgusted face at even the thought of doing any of the above.
Anyways...the more I thought about it today, the more I think I am distributing signs of depression. I don't really have energy to do anything, my mood sways back and forth quite frequently, I have been sleeping a lot lately, and I have noticed I've been eating more to comfort me. Now I was starting to eat pretty healthy and I was feeling great about myself...I don't really think a change in diet can cause you to fall into a depression though..just doesn't make sense. Cuz like I said...I felt great about myself and now...not so much.
And nothing really terrible is happening to me. Actually family life is well, personal life is well, and I am moving forward at work so WTF? We aren't having any financial problems or struggling or anything of that nature. To think about everything in my life there is absolutely NOTHING wrong but yet...I still feel this way.
*sigh* I don't know what to do anymore..it's not fair to anyone...I mean I try...honestly to have a good time and just tonight I threw a surprise baby shower for a girl at work and had a great time but now that I am home and by myself it's like I hit an all time low. I feel like I am going through a farking midlife crisis......WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!??!!
Well, writing this has made me feel slightly better. Thanks for reading.
Added: And please don't tell me to see a doctor, because I have no insurance and am trying to get the money together to see a doctor for a prior issue.
Within the last couple weeks I have been feeling very gloomy. My moods are up and down and all over the place. My birthday is next month and it's my "Big 21" and everyone keeps asking me what the plans are and I keep saying "Honestly, I wish I could just sleep the day away." We were originally planning a short "getaway" but now that doesn't sound like fun....not even going out to dinner sounds like fun. LOL and as I am sitting here typing this I am making a disgusted face at even the thought of doing any of the above.
Anyways...the more I thought about it today, the more I think I am distributing signs of depression. I don't really have energy to do anything, my mood sways back and forth quite frequently, I have been sleeping a lot lately, and I have noticed I've been eating more to comfort me. Now I was starting to eat pretty healthy and I was feeling great about myself...I don't really think a change in diet can cause you to fall into a depression though..just doesn't make sense. Cuz like I said...I felt great about myself and now...not so much.
And nothing really terrible is happening to me. Actually family life is well, personal life is well, and I am moving forward at work so WTF? We aren't having any financial problems or struggling or anything of that nature. To think about everything in my life there is absolutely NOTHING wrong but yet...I still feel this way.
*sigh* I don't know what to do anymore..it's not fair to anyone...I mean I try...honestly to have a good time and just tonight I threw a surprise baby shower for a girl at work and had a great time but now that I am home and by myself it's like I hit an all time low. I feel like I am going through a farking midlife crisis......WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!??!!
Well, writing this has made me feel slightly better. Thanks for reading.
Added: And please don't tell me to see a doctor, because I have no insurance and am trying to get the money together to see a doctor for a prior issue.