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[Cindee]

I'm just wondering if this has ever happened to anyone?, I've had a mental disibilty(could not walk out the door or be around anyone in a social setting, this happened when I turned 19 and it still happens, even thought I'm taking meds )and when you hear about a classmate that seems to be doing everything right and has everything going for her, have you ever felt a little bit of jealousy?

[Njean31]

yes honey, it's human nature. good luck to you.

[Night Wolf]

Yes. I think everyone has at some point.

[ahippiechic]

I think we all feel that way sometimes. Just keep thinking of all the positive things about you!

[llbriteyes]

Having a mental disability myself, I can totally relate to you. But... I'm older. The only think I ever wanted to do when I was a kid was to grow up, get married and have kids. At that I am a success. Yeah, I see my classmates really doing great things, but I figure, hey... I'm a success! I did the career thing for a long time, and trust me. It isn't all its cracked up to be.

Even though you have a mental disability, remember, it isn't WHO you are. It doesn't DEFINE you. You're on meds and can work around it. If you aren't on the right meds, you can change that.

What do you think you would like to do in life? Do you have any set goals? Writing, painting, sculpting, etc? What do you enjoy? Change what you can about yourself, and what you can't change, don't worry about.

((((( Cindy )))))

Linda



I'm just wondering if this has ever happened to anyone?, I've had a mental disibilty(could not walk out the door or be around anyone in a social setting, this happened when I turned 19 and it still happens, even thought I'm taking meds )and when you hear about a classmate that seems to be doing everything right and has everything going for her, have you ever felt a little bit of jealousy?

[Cindee]

Thanks, I appreciate the responds, I've abused alcohol and have made a fool out of myself (and have done some horrible things, some to which I can't talk about to this day) I can't forgive myself or forget about them, but by typing this it makes me feel better. :o

[Cindee]

Having a mental disability myself, I can totally relate to you. But... I'm older. The only think I ever wanted to do when I was a kid was to grow up, get married and have kids. At that I am a success. Yeah, I see my classmates really doing great things, but I figure, hey... I'm a success! I did the career thing for a long time, and trust me. It isn't all its cracked up to be.

Even though you have a mental disability, remember, it isn't WHO you are. It doesn't DEFINE you. You're on meds and can work around it. If you aren't on the right meds, you can change that.

What do you think you would like to do in life? Do you have any set goals? Writing, painting, sculpting, etc? What do you enjoy? Change what you can about yourself, and what you can't change, don't worry about.

((((( Cindy )))))

Linda
Thanks, I really don't have any goals right now, but I do like to garden and a little bit of painting. I guess I'll start trying to do that. Thanks again(you'll never know how much I appreciate the respond)

[llbriteyes]

You don't say what your disability is, but I can tell you from some experience, that when something tragic happens in our lives at an early age, something inside our brains change. It doesn't happen to everyone, and nobody knows why. Its a chemical embalance in the brain, and many people, before AND after treatment, self-medicate with drugs, alcohol, pot, shopping, sex, etc.

I can speak from experience when I say that I've done some horrible things I regret. And to the people I love the most.

If you want to talk more in depth, PM me.

Linda


Thanks, I appreciate the responds, I've abused alcohol and have made a fool out of myself (and have done some horrible things, some to which I can't talk about to this day) I can't forgive myself or forget about them, but by typing this it makes me feel better. :o

[ang in NC]

Everyone has a past, don't ever let anyone tell you that they have never done anything wrong! PS I have a problem about being jealous of people who are younger then me and they have their nice big houses!

[Steena]

PS I have a problem about being jealous of people who are younger then me and they have their nice big houses!


And guess what? They're probably up to their eyeballs in debt. Other people seem to have a cushy life, but it may not really be that way. You know, in the high school years, if you feel like you're a nobody and not part of the "in" group, it can really affect you and your mindset many years after highschool. Think about it, at that point you're just getting started in life and only about 1/4 of the way through life (if you're lucky). so, why should a silly mindset of how you "think you are" affect the rest of your life? It seems crazy, but your younger years do seem to set a path. But, it is how you look at everything. Above posters are right when they suggest finding something that you're really good at and really take it from there.

[Njean31]

You don't say what your disability is, but I can tell you from some experience, that when something tragic happens in our lives at an early age, something inside our brains change. It doesn't happen to everyone, and nobody knows why. Its a chemical embalance in the brain, and many people, before AND after treatment, self-medicate with drugs, alcohol, pot, shopping, sex, etc.

I can speak from experience when I say that I've done some horrible things I regret. And to the people I love the most.

If you want to talk more in depth, PM me.

Linda

here's something else we can talk about. i can seriously relate to doing horrible things to the people i love most. i can relate to op too about the alcohol abuse thing and doing things that you can't even talk about. for some reason i thought op was younger than me too which is why i called her honey earlier, but according to her profile she was born in 1963.

i also agree with the other posters, find something you are good at and do it. everyone has a purpose in life imo, even us with mental problems, illness, or disability.

[LuvBigRip]

If anyone tells you that they have never felt jealousy towards someone, they are a liar. Everyone has looks at someone else and wanted what they have or to be like they are. It is human nature. It is important enough to be one of the seven deadly sins, as well as one of the 10 commandments.

You state that you are on medications, and while I commend you for that, and please don't take this the wrong way, but I also hope you are seeking some counseling. Sometimes, the best thing you can do is talk about it. There is so much outside your doors and being with others that life can offer to you. We only get one shot at this life, I hope you can learn to enjoy it, and to get the best out of it. Good Luck.

[schsa]

Look you have a mental illness. After my breakdown I thought that I would never be able to go to work again. It took me three months of temp jobs before I started getting my confidence back.

I have a great job now and I feel very successful. As for younger people with huge houses, yes they have those huge houses and are probably in debt up to their eyeballs. If one of them looses a job, that house will be gone. Or they are only paying the interest and not the principal which is just about the same renting.

[llbriteyes]

My mother told me once, that even though they have these HUGE houses, the insides are empty. She knew this one couple who had a beautiful house on a golf course. She went in, and they were using actual patio furniture to sit on. They could afford the house, but nothing else.

Linda



And guess what? They're probably up to their eyeballs in debt. Other people seem to have a cushy life, but it may not really be that way. You know, in the high school years, if you feel like you're a nobody and not part of the "in" group, it can really affect you and your mindset many years after highschool. Think about it, at that point you're just getting started in life and only about 1/4 of the way through life (if you're lucky). so, why should a silly mindset of how you "think you are" affect the rest of your life? It seems crazy, but your younger years do seem to set a path. But, it is how you look at everything. Above posters are right when they suggest finding something that you're really good at and really take it from there.

[Cindee]

I read all the posts and they really made me feel alot better, I guess It was just one of those days that I was feeling sorry for myself. My mom came and told me about her(because she was one of my good friends in high school) and all of a sudden I start looking at my sweat pants, my shirt which had seen better days, also my shoes which should have been thrown away along time ago and then realizing that I had forgotten to comb my hair :p This friend is a very nice person and I do wish her well, because she deserves the best. Again Thanks :)