catdance
03-06-2004, 05:41 PM
If there was a "tear" icon, I would have used it.
I live with a man who has no control of himself...none. We fight alot, he is a very angry person, who rather than attack me with his body, although sometime's he trap's me in a room, or a corner to verabally "vomit" all over me. I see a therapist and before, I used to tell him about my appointment's, and now my very personal life and painful background come's to haunt me through his words, which are ficious... I have many way's to come back after him, I just don't anymore..he isn't a big drinker, more the "smoking kind", he is overweight and at 40 year's old has nothing to show for himself..everything in the house we live in and use in mine..I HATE HIM!!!!
I can't believe after the year's I have been alive, I ever thought to live or love with him..I have been through this before, with other men..I don't know what to do anymore.
In Decemember when we moved, I put out over $3,000..in bill's food and the security of this place, and I was unemployed,and although he has paid last month's stuff in full, he still isn't EVEN on anything, I have decided to not buy food for him, as most of the shopping I do is around him, and I will cease that.
3 time's since we have lived here, he has stormed out, only to come back the next day..I think I know where he goes, to the guy's for a drunk..but I can't do any of this anymore.
I am moving, I will not tolerate this pain..and I am in it now..
This feel's like I have been beat-up again, the physical kind....and within day's..he will be "sorry to me"..but now..I can't accept it.
Not ever again.
Just had to pout about it..
Sorry!!!
Not a great read, and as I read over it..it just sad..and not even close to how I do, really feel..
<sorry>
:(
I live with a man who has no control of himself...none. We fight alot, he is a very angry person, who rather than attack me with his body, although sometime's he trap's me in a room, or a corner to verabally "vomit" all over me. I see a therapist and before, I used to tell him about my appointment's, and now my very personal life and painful background come's to haunt me through his words, which are ficious... I have many way's to come back after him, I just don't anymore..he isn't a big drinker, more the "smoking kind", he is overweight and at 40 year's old has nothing to show for himself..everything in the house we live in and use in mine..I HATE HIM!!!!
I can't believe after the year's I have been alive, I ever thought to live or love with him..I have been through this before, with other men..I don't know what to do anymore.
In Decemember when we moved, I put out over $3,000..in bill's food and the security of this place, and I was unemployed,and although he has paid last month's stuff in full, he still isn't EVEN on anything, I have decided to not buy food for him, as most of the shopping I do is around him, and I will cease that.
3 time's since we have lived here, he has stormed out, only to come back the next day..I think I know where he goes, to the guy's for a drunk..but I can't do any of this anymore.
I am moving, I will not tolerate this pain..and I am in it now..
This feel's like I have been beat-up again, the physical kind....and within day's..he will be "sorry to me"..but now..I can't accept it.
Not ever again.
Just had to pout about it..
Sorry!!!
Not a great read, and as I read over it..it just sad..and not even close to how I do, really feel..
<sorry>
:(