Will IT ever end? - Big Big Forums

Ladytiger · 02-19-2003, 07:17 PM

I am so sad, hurt and freaked out right now. This probably won't even make much sense. I just need to get it out before I explode.
On top of going through all these med withdrawals and the maddness that it brings to me everyday/night. My daughter just dropped a bombshell on me.
I know that teenagers will be teenagers and all that, the phases, the craziness that it too entails. She just really crossed the line today.
I cannot go into details as of yet, still trying to absorb it all. It's nothing like sex, drugs or anything like that. I will just have to update with another post when I can.
I TRY to stay positive, upbeat and all. I feel like I have been kicked for the last time. I just don't understand why life seems to use me as punching bag right now. I JUST CANNOT TAKE ANYMORE.
I am not saying this for pity or attention, just feel like I want to sleep forever.
I talked with the doc yesterday, she everything with the Klonopin is going like it's supposed to. I told her about the horrible sensations I get, she said it's part of the process. As my body is dealing with the lower doses of Klonopin, it's hanging onto all it can, and wanting more-that's why the withdrawal symptoms.
My daughter(who is 13) has no conception of what I am going through even though we have explained in detail. I have been told that she hates me and always will (that wasn't the bombshell). She also told me that she doesn't "see" me a mother, among other things.
Like I said, I would just like to sleep forever sometimes, and today is one of those sometimes. I just don't know how I will get back up after this.
Didn't mean for this to be so long. Just wanted to reach out to my BBS family.
Carry on with life.

cpbaby · 02-19-2003, 07:23 PM

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socks1211 · 02-19-2003, 07:33 PM

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mlathroum · 02-19-2003, 07:34 PM

(((((Ladytiger)))))

Queensown · 02-19-2003, 07:38 PM

(((hugs)))

Teenagers are the pits... or at least I was. She probably won't realize until she's about 20 how much she loves you and how horrible she'll feel for what she puts you through. I went through that stage and now my mom and I are closer than ever. I know that's not much consilation now though.

Good Luck with the meds, don't have any advice for you on that end.

02-19-2003, 07:46 PM

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Originally posted by Queensown
(((hugs)))

Teenagers are the pits... or at least I was. She probably won't realize until she's about 20 how much she loves you and how horrible she'll feel for what she puts you through.

Also, at 13 she's probably going through some hormonal changes and has a few problems of her own ... body changes, zits, feeling ugly, peer pressures, wanting to date, and so on. I'm not defending anything that she's said or done, but if she's like most teenage girls, she's not really plugged in right now.

My girls were selfish, self-centered little b!tches for about two years ... constantly saying horrible things to me and about me ... rebelling over everything. Just remember, it will pass as Queensown says.

In the meantime, just take care of yourself ...

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littlebell · 02-19-2003, 08:37 PM

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denisemm · 02-19-2003, 08:44 PM

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Originally posted by Ravenlost
If I had a dollar for every time my two told me they hated me when they were teenagers, I'd be a rich woman now.

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Just keep hanging on. It will get better.

Mother's should get at least a dollar every time! LOL!

((((((((LT)))))))) I knwo I keep saying this, but hang in there!! Hope all is ok!

KATinKY · 02-19-2003, 09:24 PM

((((((((((( Ladytiger)))))))))))
I don't have teenagers as of yet, so I cant give ya any advice as for that, but hang in there, I know you can do it and we are here for ya...

schsa · 02-19-2003, 09:48 PM

LT, I was a horrible 13 year old and believe me when I say that I grew up in the Beaver Cleaver house hold and had no real reason to be ugly to anyone. It's the age where you know everything and nothing. Old enough not to be a kid but not old enough to be an adult. 13 going on 28. Regardless of what she says, she doesn't mean it. She is reacting and not thinking of anyone but herself and her needs. I know you feel like crap. Just let it go. She's just being 13.

JoanieV2 · 02-19-2003, 11:46 PM

{{{{Ladytiger********

Hang in there. Things will get better. I have a 16-yr-old daughter so I can imagine what you're going thru.