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BeanieLuvR · 05-19-2009, 03:51 PM

I am so sorry. I'm praying God will show you what to do and that he will help you through this trying time.

Army-Mom · 05-19-2009, 04:44 PM

your family is in my prayers.

ilovecats · 05-19-2009, 10:10 PM

I will keep you and your family in my thoughts.You picked yourself up before and you can do it again.good luck.

Unicornmom77 · 05-20-2009, 01:12 AM

Well it went from bad to worse, they let him out of the hospital today without being mentally evaluated and he came home and could not understand why I was angry with him, I told him how I felt and he threw a huge fit, he threw the laptop into the flat screen and now I have a 42 in piece of trash hanging on my wall!!! He also threw my desktop monitor off the desk and so I have no idea if it even works, the laptop is surprisingly ok...

Well I called the police and he went to jail. His mother of course bailed him out. But since it is considered domestic violence its automatic that he cannot come back here until after we go to court. Well its over, I am getting a legal aide application and doing what I should have done years ago. I am filing for divorce,

I am pretty much numb right now, I have not let the tears come, I cant I REFUSE to let this ruin my kids lives. I will remain strong and deal with it. One of the teenager cousins was talking to me tonight and he said "how will you afford all the bills alone? Oh wait you all ready do" Yeah he has not worked since I dunno when... its just going to be hard to do all the work alone. The cleaning and upkeep alone will keep me busy from sun up top sun down. I am gonna just do my damnest and do it, I know I can.

My body hurts, I am so tired, the kids are doing good, it wont really sink in for a few days, since they have been through us separating before. But I know this is final, unless I give up my daycare, because if he is charged with a violent crime I can never operate with him here. I will not let my kids go through living in crap again so its not really my choice, he made it for me. That is just how I have to see it. Anyway I am going to go kiss my kids goodnight and say my prayers and try and rest for another day.

Thank you for all the prayers and PM's It always amazes me the support I can pull from all of you, it means the world to me, hell it may just be what keeps my head above water.

pepperpot · 05-20-2009, 01:21 AM

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....its just going to be hard to do all the work alone. The cleaning and upkeep alone will keep me busy from sun up top sun down. I am gonna just do my damnest and do it, I know I can.

Seems like you have been doing this all along...it may even be easier for you once the baggage is off your shoulders.

You're in my prayers. I know you can do this too.

Get some rest.....

gmyers · 05-20-2009, 01:25 AM

I'm really sorry for what you're going through. It sounds like you've been through a lot with him. I'll pray God gives you the strength to do what you have too. Maybe it will shake him up and he'll at least try to change. Even if you don't stay together. I hope he gets his life together because you and you're kids deserve a lot better than what he's putting you through. Hang in there I know its really hard right now.

sheila_361 · 05-20-2009, 01:36 AM

You can do it girl!!!!

janelle · 05-20-2009, 03:40 AM

So sorry for what you are going through. It will be better if he leaves and does not come back with what you have to put up with. Your kids will be happier in a peaceful home. It can't be good for them to see him like that.

If he isn't back to cause problems, half your stress will be gone right there. Will be praying you can find help you need from a woman's shelter or other place. Hugs.

DBackFan · 05-20-2009, 08:57 PM

Oh Wendy I just saw this and I am so sorry

I will do anything I can to help you and you know the church will too. I wish you lived closer to me. I always thought you and I could be good friends. Stay strong, you are to kind hearted.

Shann · 05-20-2009, 09:10 PM

you deserve better and what he did was uncalled for. I wish you the best of luck through this, I know it will be hard, but like you said you're doing everything yourself as it is, no need to take care of another "child" You are in my thoughts.

PrincessArky · 05-31-2009, 04:54 PM

I am so sorry to hear what you are going through but I know that you will get through and be an even stronger woman

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

It will be hard adjusting to doing it all but believe me if there is a woman on earth than can it is you