I have so much going on. I am not sure what Gods will is for me, but I continue to pray that my husband will leave the woman he is with and come back to me again. I pray that the next time that I do see my husband or his family that they will see all the positive changes in me and believe that I am now trustworthy and more motherly for the children. Pray that I will stop holding myself guilty from the past and that others will forgive me for each and every wrong.May I have a heart that is open to all of Gods messages, may I have ears that are always quick to listen and hear Gods word. May I have the mind to always remember the good things that Jesus Christ teaches me and may I know how to apply them to my lives and may I always apply them to my life. May I get to see my children soon and often and may I be a good Motherly Christian example for me, may I be a gifted, wise, firm and strong mother and wife. I pray right now that my husband will have a change of heart for the woman that he is with and that he will head on back to his home state, with our 3 beautiful children and come to see me and kiss me and hold me in his hands and I pray that God will put into him and I a heart of love, compassion, forgiveness,devotion, and all those other wonderful feelings. May my husband and I be thinking of the positive things about each other constantly and somehow know we were meant to be, I pray that Ryan and I will have true love so that all of the feelings of jealousy, rage, anger, abuse and such will never pop up again. I pray for a good loveable marriage and that Ryan and I will be the best parents and husband and wife in the world (you know what I mean

. Pray for my family and his family and all of their families souls.Thank You!