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jasmine · 06-25-2009, 02:05 AM

I am overwhelmed with stress, depression, anger, hurt, loneliness. My marriage.
As this is my second husband, my first marriage ended in divorce because of adultery on his part. This time though. It is never ending, he never comes home, he is always gone, sometimes for hours, sometimes for days,sometimes a week at a time. He always says that he is on his way home, but never shows up. I have tried, tried, and tried. And quit frankly, I am tired of trying, and crying. Maybe I cannot understand, because I believe he is an alchohic. I don't know. I don't know if it's the right way to pray or not. But I have been praying that he would just not come home. That one night on the way home from the bar he will get stopped and he will be put in jail so I won't have to deal with it anymore. I have asked him to leave, but he will not. So the only way I see to (I guess you could say) "get rid of him", is he were to be put in jail. His drivers license is no good.......... I am confused on how to pray. I feel wrong praying to God to end my marriage and not let him come home. But I also know that this is no way to live, that he is not good to me, is not here for me, or my children.
Anyway, I ask that you would pray that I would have the knowledge on how to handle this situation.
In my heart, I know that it is over. I don't want to pray for my own selfish reasons and wantings, but God has to see what I am going through and what he does.
So, once again, I am praying that somehow, someway, this will just all end.

I picked myself up last time, was strong, got on my own two feet and supported my kids. But I am just so tired, exhausted, and depressed. I am gaining weight from eating, smoking more cigarettes. I can't pick myself up to do anything. I laugh and enjoy my children, but inside I am dying. I just hope that he gets stopped tonight........ He has a couple more years of probation. He would prob. have to finish serving that in jail if he gets in any more trouble. I know that may seem mean. But, I just can't take it anymore, and he won't leave when I ask him to. Please don't think I am hateful on wishing this upon him. But I truely know he is destroying his life. And maybe perhaps spending some time thinking about it would be good.?

06-25-2009, 02:05 AM	#1 (permalink)
jasmine One for you, One for me Join Date: May 2001 Location: Out in the sticks, on a long dirt road that leads to no-where Posts: 4,561 iTrader: (7) Thanks: 792 Thanked 1,129 Times in 553 Posts	My marriage I am overwhelmed with stress, depression, anger, hurt, loneliness. My marriage. As this is my second husband, my first marriage ended in divorce because of adultery on his part. This time though. It is never ending, he never comes home, he is always gone, sometimes for hours, sometimes for days,sometimes a week at a time. He always says that he is on his way home, but never shows up. I have tried, tried, and tried. And quit frankly, I am tired of trying, and crying. Maybe I cannot understand, because I believe he is an alchohic. I don't know. I don't know if it's the right way to pray or not. But I have been praying that he would just not come home. That one night on the way home from the bar he will get stopped and he will be put in jail so I won't have to deal with it anymore. I have asked him to leave, but he will not. So the only way I see to (I guess you could say) "get rid of him", is he were to be put in jail. His drivers license is no good.......... I am confused on how to pray. I feel wrong praying to God to end my marriage and not let him come home. But I also know that this is no way to live, that he is not good to me, is not here for me, or my children. Anyway, I ask that you would pray that I would have the knowledge on how to handle this situation. In my heart, I know that it is over. I don't want to pray for my own selfish reasons and wantings, but God has to see what I am going through and what he does. So, once again, I am praying that somehow, someway, this will just all end. I picked myself up last time, was strong, got on my own two feet and supported my kids. But I am just so tired, exhausted, and depressed. I am gaining weight from eating, smoking more cigarettes. I can't pick myself up to do anything. I laugh and enjoy my children, but inside I am dying. I just hope that he gets stopped tonight........ He has a couple more years of probation. He would prob. have to finish serving that in jail if he gets in any more trouble. I know that may seem mean. But, I just can't take it anymore, and he won't leave when I ask him to. Please don't think I am hateful on wishing this upon him. But I truely know he is destroying his life. And maybe perhaps spending some time thinking about it would be good.?