I am manic depressive. I have been on many many many many many many many (get the point) meds. Before I was settled on these meds I was very VERY suicidle at times and have the scars to prove it. I have been in the hospital 3 times also and needed to be in them. I also came up from my lows (when non medicated) and thought oh I am allllll better now. Well it would always happen again. It will for you too. Please don't think I am trying to bring you down. All I am saying is that you need to see a doc and tell them what you are feeling. Something needs to be done ie. increase yur already meds, put you on meds, ect. I say that cause my ex friend (sis's still best friend) was also manic who cut too. That is major sign of manic/ bi-polar (they are the same thing). Get some help like now!!! Because I was where you are at now not to long ago..... and I was on the verge of doing it. Actually I was so close I am kinda proud of myself that I am still here. I am pulling for you
