Cutting is common. Probably more common than you think. If you are feeling that bad, having suicidal thoughts, go to the ER as soon as possible. Your meds are not working and you need to be speaking to someone asap. I know someone else in your position. A few days ago she had her mother sleep with her because she was afraid that she would cut (the last time she almost bled to death) or OD on some pills. She scares the crap out of her family and me because I am always afraid that some day she won't have someone there to help her through.
Call someone. If you have a local suicide help line call there. And get someone's attention. You won't make it if you don't want to live and make someone take notice of you. I suffer from sever depression. I know that if I had not made my doctor and several others know that I needed help right then, I would not be here today.
And update us. I want to know if you are alright. Or you can write to me at
psimer0@lycos.com
I will be here for you.